To be or not to be?

Every living day of my life I ponder upon the intense question of: " what should I do and should i do it?" I always think of how my life is so damn frail, weak, small and just downright useless, and observe how other people have the certain qualities I only dream of having myself and so I envy them. They're strong, I'm not. They're fast, I'm not. They're handsome lookin, I'm not. They're taller, bigger, more popular, richer, smarter, more athletic and funnier, and I'm not. No matter how hard I try to succeed in this pathetic abstract piece of shit I call "life", I always end up finding someone or a group of people who are better than me at almost everything my mind tells me I'm good at. And this pisses me off, and I really wish that I had some unique thing about me which stood out from everyone else. All of the people i Know from school and elsewhere have some innate quality i desire to have myself, and it does kind of make me jealous at the fact that they get to enjoy and savour every breathing second of having that unique quality while i have to figure out what my unique quality is. I try to be strong and athletic, and instead, i find a bunch of people who are light years stronger and more athletic than me. I strive for success in school and life, but find tons of people who achieve better marks and recognition than me and enjoy a very nice life. I strive for a spirtual life full of happiness and friendships, but find people with better friends and more friends than me. I try to be musical and try to enjoy my piano playing but find tons of kids who are much more skilled at the piano than me. So the question is, what gives? If I can't even figure out my place in life and my forte, what is the point of trying to do anything?

The answer is this: there are millions of people suffering around this globe from things which could be fixed by donations and attention. Poverty, hunger, disease, violence and fear. They have to go through these things every living day, and literally have nothing to eat, drink, wear and protect themselves with. I find this very, very ominous and this brings forth a feeling of meloncholy on my mind every time I think of it. So, should i strive for all those things I've mentioned above? Yes, because it's worth a shot. And even though i may not end up being the best, I should at least be proud of what I am capable of, and the progressions I've made as a person. Right now, all those things don't matter to me because it's time to expand and go beyond what is given. I must help those and think of those who aren't fortunate enough to even have the opportunity to prove themselves in life. It's time......